There is something that my father or mother instilled in me at one point that seems to make me different than a lot of people. I don't really fail at things. I mean, yeah, I fail but it never feels like failure to me. I just don't have that in my mental vocabulary. I try something, it works I keep doing it, it doesn't I do something else hopefully taking a lesson with me. Anyone looking at the company I ran could probably point out any number of failures. I threw a lot of paint at the wall and did have some people tell me to be more thoughtful. But much of it worked and there were a lot of employees who worked for us who had better lives as a result. But I did a lot of stuff that didn't work out, spent a lot of money on systems and advisors that fell by the wayside. Kurt Vonnegut in my head saying 'so it goes'. Never did I say, 'that was a failure', never did I feel it. Just turn over the pedals and keep riding.
On the other hand I never feel like I've succeeded. I've never felt like I'd arrived somewhere and could say I was a success at anything.
I just hang around in the middle somewhere. It is a trade off.( Collapse )