How to deal with the day - My apologies if I offend
When I was running my business I had about 10 hours a day with too much to do and if I ran out of things to do another 10 hours of stuff that I should be doing or should have done. Basically a small business.
Now I don't have too much filling my brain which is nice but the world is starting to seep in and increasingly it is disturbing my attitude. What I'm pretty sure we're watching is the end of the world as humanity has known it for the past six thousand years or so and the acceleration is increasing (I keep hearing Ian Anderson in the back of my head "and the train it won't stop going, no it won't slow down). Nothing more catastrophic will happen in Texas than we already see. I'll keep my warranty up on my air conditioner and we'll have more 104 degree days every summer but the water isn't going to rise here and the hurricanes are too far away. But even in my lifetime we'll see Miami and New Orleans and Southern California under water most of the year, I suspect. And the upper New England states will eat the hurricanes that decimate the windward and leeward islands along the path up there.
My answer to all that is to work on my footprint. Keep trying to make it smaller. Minuscule contributions.
But none of that bothers me. I think Greta and her tribe will turn the tide, as it were, somehow.
What I can not get beyond and, really, I just need to turn it off and do something else, join a monastery or something, is what has happened to our country and how much of its population thinks things are hunky dory.
I try to put the current morally corrupt administration in some kind of historical context and come up with an Andrew Jackson here, a Cortes there. I guess the Pol Pots and Stalins are over the top, but maybe Mussolini. Morally corrupt people who had a following, who rose through history with their force of personality and managed to do so without any real values other than naked ambition. (And along those lines from Mussolini: "Democracy is beautiful in theory; in practice it is a fallacy. You in America will see that some day.")
Now I write that I see how naive I've been through my life to think we could have a society where that can't happen here. No longer can it happen. We've watched the other countries go down that path and our society is more mature than that.
But we're here. In the middle of watching a tyrant arise, a narcissist who engenders the worst, who motivates so successfully from fear. Who digs out of his constituency the worst they have to give and gilds his rhetoric with it, celebrates with it, tells them that they are better than everyone else.
History repeats and I don't know whether to watch or not, if I can stand to watch or not.
I've got too much time on my hands.